It’s not you – it’s me, but as you know I have committed to working this out. I know, I know – you haven’t changed I have. And yes, I know there was a time in my life that I loved you and all of your coldness and darkness. Yes, I know it’s not you – it’s me. I have taken those things that I once loved for granted. And we both know that is the beginning of the end in any relationship. I’ve gotten older and a little more set in my ways but I am working on it – going to back to the things I used to love about you to see if we can rekindle the flame – because we both know that you are not going to change so it’s up to me to change the way I think about us.
There was a time when I loved to run during the winter months – who loves to run to begin with, right? Maybe a normal person likes to run in decent temperatures, but one must be an absolute fool to love running in winter. It’s cold, it’s windy, it’s dark, it’s icy, it’s snowy – did I mention it’s cold? But it’s also quiet. And everything is still. And it is calm. And it is peaceful. And there is hardly anyone else outside – except maybe another crazy runner. I love the feeling of the ice-cold air in my lungs. I love being the one outside that people point to as they pass by in their cars saying to themselves, “she must be nuts.” And for some reason, I think I run faster in colder weather. I know I don’t, but I think that I do. I love running all winter long so I am ready for spring. It has been many years since I have done it – run all winter and been ready for spring. There’s always an excuse – it’s too dark, it’s too cold, it’s too late, it’s too early. It’s just too damn easy to get trapped in excuses…
So, winter this is what I am going to do – I will commit to running consistently – I will commit to spending some quality time with you outside. Even if it’s only a couple of miles each day. Just to keep my legs moving and keep my lungs breathing the fresh, crisp air. And I will do this in an effort to appreciate what you have to offer. I will do this for myself. I will do this because when my body is strong my mind follows. And when my mind is strong I can fight through anything – even winter. For what it’s worth.