Dear Winter,

It’s not you – it’s me, but as you know I have committed to working this out. I know, I know – you haven’t changed I have. And yes, I know there was a time in my life that I loved you and all of your coldness and darkness. Yes, I know it’s not you – it’s me. I have taken those things that I once loved for granted. And we both know that is the beginning of the end in any relationship. I’ve gotten older and a little more set in my ways but I am working on it – going to back to the things I used to love about you to see if we can rekindle the flame – because we both know that you are not going to change so it’s up to me to change the way I think about us.

There was a time when I loved to run during the winter months – who loves to run to begin with, right? Maybe a normal person likes to run in decent temperatures, but one must be an absolute fool to love running in winter. It’s cold, it’s windy, it’s dark, it’s icy, it’s snowy – did I mention it’s cold? But it’s also quiet. And everything is still. And it is calm. And it is peaceful. And there is hardly anyone else outside – except maybe another crazy runner. I love the feeling of the ice-cold air in my lungs. I love being the one outside that people point to as they pass by in their cars saying to themselves, “she must be nuts.” And for some reason, I think I run faster in colder weather. I know I don’t, but I think that I do. I love running all winter long so I am ready for spring. It has been many years since I have done it – run all winter and been ready for spring. There’s always an excuse – it’s too dark, it’s too cold, it’s too late, it’s too early. It’s just too damn easy to get trapped in excuses…

So, winter this is what I am going to do – I will commit to running consistently – I will commit to spending some quality time with you outside. Even if it’s only a couple of miles each day. Just to keep my legs moving and keep my lungs breathing the fresh, crisp air. And I will do this in an effort to appreciate what you have to offer. I will do this for myself. I will do this because when my body is strong my mind follows. And when my mind is strong I can fight through anything – even winter. For what it’s worth.

 

Winter running - Young woman running outdoors on a cold  day

 

Director of some corporate stuff who happens to like writing a lot and other creative outlets - like karaoke - even though she is quite certain those in the room with her while she sings wished she didn't like it so much... Runner of all distances, but prefers longer distances as God gave her the gift of endurance not speed... Mother of two boys and two dogs, who on most days, are perfectly sweet and good...mostly.

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